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I always knew that mentally I am not just one person—there is someone else also inside my mind:

me: You know that freedom is an illusion. Why don’t you accept the servitude totally? Why are you so adamant?
I: I am aware that there is no freedom. I wish to stick to the illusion of freedom. Adamant, crazy—this is the way I am, this is the way God has made me. I can’t help it.

Recently, I realized that this duality is limited not just to the mental aspect of me. It has a physical existence too:

I: I am feeling cold.
me: Yeah, I am also feeling cold.

November 2008